Mõni mäng on meelekindlatele. Soovid teada, mis tegelikult toimub seestunuga, kelle ükski sõna ei maksa, lubadus ei kehti, unistused kustuvad ja loomise asemel sünnib häving? Mine temaks. Pead selleks olema väga keskmes ja teadlik, mida teed.
Seestu seestunusse ja avastad, et ta ei ela üldse oma enese elu. Teda juhitakse ainete-sõltuvuste niitidega, nagu marionetti. Ta kordab sama altvedamiste-tühjaksimemiste mustrit – ja et ise ennast mitte oksele ajada, asetab vastutuse üleni väljapoole. Kõik on süüdi ja vastutavad tema järjestikuse äpardumiste jada eest. Kõigil on kohustused, temal õigused. Sealhulgas kohustuste täitjaid üha rünnata, sildistada, augustada. Pidevad teiste arvustamised täidavad surmavalt tühjad päevad.
Seestunusse seestumine on karm ja määriv mäng – pärast tuleb hoolega jälgida – ja veel üle vaadata – et ühtki energeetilist hall-kleepjat limaniiti sinu ja mädade mustrite ohvri vahele ripakile lödisema ei jää.
Kordan – seda römasse sukeldumist võib endale lubada vaid eriti tugev tunnetaja.

Alexis Varnum egoismist:
Mis on egoism ja mis mitte? Teha oma elus seda, mis Sulle meeldib pole egoism. Sundida teisi tegema seda, mida Sina tahad on egoism. Hoolitseda enda õnne eest pole egoism Sundida teisi hoolitsema Sinu õnne eest on egoism. Lahendada enda elu probleemid ja hoida tähelepanu enda elul pole egoism. Pidevalt kurta oma kurja saatust, elu ja tõmmata teiste tähelepanu oma elule on egoism. Sünnitada lapse ja õpetada teda oma eeskujuga armastama elu, olla rõõmus ja õnnelik pole egoism. Teha lapsest oma elu mõtte, allutada teda oma huvidele, pühendada oma elu vaid oma lapsele on egoism. Lubada endale puhkepäev, väljalülitada telefon, mitte minna sõpradega välja, mitte vastata kõnedele kui ei soovi rääkida, pühendada endale aega, soovida olla omaette pole egoism. Minna kohtumisele või külla kuhu Sa ei taha minna, olla vastavuses teiste ootustega, vastata ebameeldivatele kõnedele, teha teisi oma ärrituse süüdlaseks, lubada teistel valada sulle kaela negatiivsust on egoism. Valida oma huvid ja ennast, öelda „ei“ ja „mulle see ei sobi“ pole egoism. Valida teste huvid, lubada ületada enda piirid ja süüdistada oma lähedasi selles, et nemad on süüdi, et sinu elu on läinud mitte nii kuidas Sa tahaksid on egoism. Keelduda teiste abistamises nii materiaalsest kui moraalsest kui Sa tunned, et Sul puudub jõud pole egoism. Aidata teist ja teha temast Sinu võlgniku, kui see inimene seda ei taha on egoism. Paluda abi aga aktsepteerida, et teine võib keelduda pole egoism. Näidata näpuga ja teha märkust teisele inimesele, et ta peab Sind aitama või muul viisil sundida teist inimest Sind aitama on egoism. Mitte võtta endale töökohustused, mis pole kirjas Sinu töölepingus, kuid teha hästi oma tööd pole egoism. Koormata ennast teiste inimeste ülesannetega ja pärast olla vihane oma tööle ja töökaaslastele on egoism. Kuulata teste inimeste arvamust, kuid teha nii nagu pead õigeks pole egoism. Süüdistada teist, et tema pakutud ei tööta või ei too oodatud tulemused või nõustuda kuid sisemiselt tunned, et see sulle ei sobi ja sa seda ei taha on egoism. Valida ennast pole egoism. Valida teist, et tema pärast valiks Sind on egoism. EGOISM on see mis kinnitab sinu kaassõltuvust teisest ja ohvri positsiooni. EGOISM puudub selles, kui Sa oled ise oma elu looja, kes on suuteline valima oma õnne ja kanda selle eest vastutust. Alusta rahulikult ja järjepidevalt valima ennast ja oma elu.

Ja tänu tuli!
Nagu ikka, talli puhastades. Otsisin põhjust ja võimalust strawberry-fieldi mõrvamise eest tänulik olla. Ma teadsin, et minu metsmaasikate mahaniitmisel on sügavam põhjus. Jah, seestunu põhjus oli saatana teenimine ja teadmatus, mida ta teeb – tõelise minaga sideme täielik kaotamine. Ent miks minule see tragöödia saadeti?
Aga sellepärast, et need armastatud ja poputatud metsmaasikad olid nabanöör.
Nende kaudu toitsin teadmatult-tahtmatult, aga see-eest pidevalt vampiiri.
Ta ise lõikas nabanööri läbi. Oli valida, kas ohverdada mind või maasikad.
Kusjuures roimar ütles ühe õige lause – mine otsi endale oma maasikad. Õigus. Nii ongi.
Rohtugu rada, midapidi kogemata kombel puuki potitati. Aamen.

Kogu maailmas puhastavad empaadid enda küljest praegu nartsislikke psühhopaate lahti. Pole oluline, kas ilusast hingest sai vampiir alkoholi või mingi muu sõltuvuse ja oma hinge ära andmise, seestumise tõttu – oluline on, et me kõik lõpetame selle tänamatu perversse imetamise:
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“Saturn is the illusion that there is a reality, and Neptune is the reality that there is none.”
The Full Moon in Sagittarius on June 14th, 2022 is square Neptune and sextile Saturn, raising important questions about what’s real and what’s not.
Fata Morgana is a mirage right above the horizon, seen at sea, in polar regions or in deserts. The mirage may involve any distant object, including boats, islands, and the coastline.
The optical phenomenon occurs because the rays of light bend when they pass through air layers of different temperatures that are inverted from their normal layering.
Normally, air is warmer closer to the surface, and cooler higher up – however, in exceptional conditions, the layer of warm air is above the layer of cool air – and this is when a Fata Morgana occurs.
Full Moon In Sagittarius – What’s Real?
Fata Morgana and other optical illusions really make us question the notion of reality.
The world as we see it through our senses is just a reflection of the specific physics of our environment. If for whatever reason we would have cool air above the surface, and a layer of warmer air on top, then there will be mirages everywhere. We would all think we’ve gone mad or that the aliens have come.
It is not that the mirage is not real.
The reflection of an upside-down boat or coastline is based on sensory information that is 100% real – it’s just that it appears in a place where it shouldn’t.
It’s interesting that many landmases or islands have been discovered ‘thanks’ to mirages. Sailors would ‘see’ a coastline for example, they would sail in a direction where they wouldn’t otherwise, only to eventually discover something completely new.
Full Moon In Sagittarius And Neptune
That’s how Neptune works too.
Neptune twists ‘reality’ and this twisting helps us ‘see’ things from a different perspective. At first, it may appear that Neptune’s reality twists are totally random.
Neptune is anything but random. The universe has a geometry and interconnectedness that is so complex, that it’s difficult to make sense of with our Mercury mind.
Our Mercury mind is designed according to Earth’s physics, and can only decode information that is a direct reflection of Earth’s physics. That’s why we don’t see mirages when we have cool air on top of warm air, because that’s our everyday reality.
Neptune ‘strikes’ when we can no longer find answers using ‘logic’ aka our Mercury. When things no longer make sense, when we’re stuck, that’s when we need a Neptune intervention.
Neptune works primarily through dreams and intuition.
When we dream, seemingly unrelated information, mental or emotional imprints from our past are rearranged much like in a Fata Morgana, showing us subtle connections that in turn help us process the information and find solutions we couldn’t have found in a wake state.
Full Moon In Sagittarius – The Aspects
The Full Moon in Sagittarius on June 14th, 2022 is square Neptune, inviting us to pay attention to the Fata Morganas out there.
To make things even ‘easier’ for us, the ruler of the Full Moon, Jupiter is unaspected.
Jupiter is our reference model, what we believe to be true – because it has been tried and tested. If we’re on the highway, we don’t question the traffic signs – we know someone has done the work so that we can follow a trusted path.
One of the reasons why Jupiter is the great benefic in astrology is that life is easy when we know there are things we can rely on, when we know we don’t have to worry that we’ll drive into a pit.
So what happens when Jupiter is unaspected?
When Jupiter, our reference model is unaspected, we feel like we’ve lost our compass. We’re no longer on the highway – we’re at sea or in the desert, without a map. We don’t know if we should turn right or left.
But that’s exactly the magic moment when a Neptunian Fata Morgana occurs. Neptune only shows us those signs that we need to follow for the sake of our growth and evolution. Neptune only shows us signs we are ready to see – when we’re not distracted by Jupiterian ‘realities’.
Of course, the process can feel extremely confusing.
Everything we knew to be true doesn’t seem to make sense any more. We may feel lost and stranded. But that’s because our old mental models, our old beliefs no longer serve us.
A new approach is needed.
The Full Moon square Neptune will show us that there is a way – a different way – to move forward in our lives. At the Full Moon, allow the inquisitive spirit of Sagittarius to guide you in finding different answers in unusual places.
Venus conjunct Uranus and the North Node in Taurus reminds us that when we honor our heart, the whole universe conspires to make it happen. Just like in Paolo Cohelo’s Alchemist, our heart is our only true compass – and it will guide us in the barren deserts and stormy seas to find our greatest treasure.
Feelings of self-doubt may arise, since Mars is conjunct Chiron in Aries. You may ask yourself “Who am I to deserve this?”.
This is a very important question.
But instead of focusing on “(…) to deserve this”, what if we’d focus on “Who am I”, or even better, on “I am”?
If there’s something that is undeniable, even by Neptune standards, is that “you are”. You are here – and you are here for a reason.
Take these uncomfortable feelings of inadequacy as an opportunity to understand yourself at a deeper level. There’s nothing wrong with you – nor with your wants, needs and desires. The only reason you haven’t achieved them – yet – is a lack of self-knowledge.
The Sabian symbol of the Full Moon in Sagittarius is “A bluebird perched on the gate of a cottage”. As James Burgess suggests:
“We get whatever we merit. Our worthiness is always rewarded – and the rewards are always apt and fair. If we have the good fortune to see a bluebird at the threshold of our place of dwelling, it is because we deserve it. This wisdom is the foundation of all wisdom – we get what we deserve.”
Astro Butterfly